"Patience is waiting with a smile"
It's funny to me that the lessons I've taught ChellBell over the years typically end up being lessons I, myself, needed to learn.
This week has been excruciating when it came to waiting. I have found so much comfort in the loving words you all offered up, knowing that many of you have walked where I am walking. I admit that I have re-read so many of your comments this week, just in my quest for solace and a reminder that even when life is challenging, it still remains full of love, friendship, and hope. You have helped me wait with a smile!
I'm still waiting for closure. I still have morning sickness and other pregnancy symptoms. Honestly, it's been annoying to feel pregnant but no longer have a progressing pregnancy. Fortunately, my D&C is scheduled for early (and I mean ER-LAY) Monday morning. My doctor is going on vacation and is coming in at 5:30 before she leaves to perform the procedure.
Monday will be that critical page-turning day, where I end one chapter and begin another. I am am anxious to move forward, knowing that I will never be quite the same as I was before, but trusting that God's writing of my life story is powerful and without error. Maybe one day I will look back on this journey and have an understanding of why it all happened. Most likely not. Regardless, I don't question the author, and I pray that whatever He wants me to learn in this episode, and however He wants to show Himself to me during this time, will be accomplished.
Because isn't that, in the end, what it's all about?
In the meantime, here are some other things that helped me wait with a smile this weekend:
Spending time with my Mom's sister, whom I have not seen in 20 years...
Lunch at the Cheesecake Factory with ChellBell and Chris...
A night of swimming...